So, tonight I wanted to continue with the post Set that woman free. I have drafted it for at least one month ago. When I came up with that title, I had so many things to say about it, I still do, I just don’t know where to start. Again, if I could continue with it, I don’t think I would be very relevant, cos the season I am going through right now is very far from that topic, so I guess I will come back to it when the time says yes!
Yeah keeping calm it is, if you are anything like me, you probably don’t like people who tell you to calm down or keep calm cos everything is gonna be OK…say whaaat? So I should just calm down and expect everything to be solved? Are you kidding me? I am not gonna go on and pretend everything is gonna be alright, I am gonna do something, I have to do something!!! Well at least you can get the picture of who I really am with those few lines I have written above. Naturally I am very good at worrying and I always find myself running ahead of God trying to solve my problems! Can you imagine the nerve? I mean who am I? To try and run before the almighty God figuring out everything! Yeah, you can say it louder, I suck!
Amazingly God is so wonderful and gracious! It baffles me that we have such a hard time trusting God completely with the life He has given us!you know?
If I am gonna mention in this post that I have graduated back in 2015 and I haven’t got the job yet… it’s gonna bore you… but hey I am sorry I kinda mentioned it again 😃, but trust me, I am going somewhere with this. Well, about entrepreneurship, expecting to be hired and finding something I can do outside of my profession… you already guessed it, I have heard it all and with due respect, thank you, I need a job, not just a job but a teaching job. To me teaching English isn’t just some hobby or a profession I can tag along my name, No! It’s passion mixed with purpose plus calling😃 whatever you can call it. It’s not about how much money I can get out of it, being paid or not, it’s the job I can gladly do without getting bored…I hope😊 because I have only done it for like three months.
So, at the beginning of this year, I came to Johannesburg with my mom to register with SAQA and SACE and yeah I did and after a short period of time I was delivering CV’s in Johannesburg town, Randburg and even applying online for a job… and all I got was NoNE😊. How did I feel? I am glad you asked, I felt devastated! You know when you feel like you have done all you had to do but still nothing changes? Yeah that. I remember one day we even asked ourselves if we are missing something and we not realising it with one of my friends, I mean everyone was getting a job except for us… duhhh, what would you think?😃
Time fled and boom! I felt it was time to go home, with or without a job, I mean I can’t keep on depending that much on people, I felt it was too much for everyone and it would be better if I went back home and tried something else. I stayed and tried being a representative for some funeral plan insurance company in town and dang! It was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life! I remember going to my manager telling him, I am sorry I thought I could do this but this is not really for me! No matter how much he convinced me of how much I can make with their company, I felt that I didn’t belong there and I was gonna bolt out of his office any minute I can get cos No! The job wasn’t just for me!
One afternoon when my sister was doing my hair, I decided to check my emails and to my surprise I was invited to attend an interview at some school I applied for on Monday night and the interview was gonna be the following day at 10:00 am, mind you, I am in Lesotho and the school is in Johannesburg. So I left everything and came straight to Johannesburg that late and arrived in the morning by 01:30 I remember.
The interview went great and the principal was quite impressed with me and wanted to hire me, he asked for my working permit… I told him I don’t have a work permit, for me to get it, they need an employment letter, so I haven’t been working…He adviced we go to the nearest home affairs and inquire about those there, we went and that was it, they needed it… but the school wouldn’t write me any employment letter even though they were that interested to work with me.
The following morning, while we were still trying to figure out how we will get an employment letter, another email popped up in my gmail account… Jenny Lai informed me that the school I applied for in Taiwan is happy to work with my friend and I… I should apply for a visa and we are both expected to be in Taiwan in the first week or the second week of August. I was happy when I got the email, but I also had a moment of trepidation. I couldn’t bare to think of a new life that was about to change everything about my life. In short, I was overwhelmed!
Amist all those feelings and everything, here is one thing I want you to know, God gave me the strength to remain calm! All my life, I have never been in so much drama yet remained so calm. I was about to witness the answer of a prayer I have been praying for like two years, yet through my hands it slipped out. I shifted my concentration to the Taiwan offer, though it was scary and very demanding, I thought, hey it’s worth a try…
Doors have been slammed, shut, half opened and opened and closed while I thought were wide opened… one day I felt like I was gonna get into the plane and fly to Taiwan and one day I felt like, this is not gonna happen, the other day I felt like maybe it’s just a dream and I need to wake up and smell the coffee, while the other day, I was daydreaming about teaching English in Taiwan…
Today I got an email from the Taiwanese embassy and for me to get a visa, a lot is needed. My mind is tired. I am worn out. I saw tears rolling down my cheeks while I asked the Lord for the new strength. I checked my heart to see if it’s angry, and it’s not, and I am surprised cos that’s not me, I am supposed to be angry right now, cos things are not happening, at least not my way… cos I don’t know about His way, I have no idea what His plan is, what I know is that, it’s beautiful and it’s for my good.(Jeremiah 29:11) I may not see it now, but one day I will see it😊
Are you in trying times? Are you feeling drained? Is it hard to keep calm? You are not alone, but being worried about anything doesn’t change a bit about it. As clìche as it sounds, I am gonna say it, ask God to give you strength and help you to remain calm and you will see😊
Lots and lots of love